Monday, June 24, 2013

Moving on without you

As I look back at the six years that I will/have been spending at this agency, it amazes me how much things has changed. Of course things cannot remain the same - nothing is constant no? But to think that this is my longest stint at one place since primary school is pretty amazing. I have not been at any one place longer than that. Maybe it's some sort of achievement but at the same time, you see people moving on and moving forward and you can't help but to think what's up is it then with me?

Over the years, I have toyed with the idea of getting myself somewhere before I move on - after all there is a lot left from the good fight and I can still go on fighting. Along the way I realised that while I have achieved some stuff that I want in life, many of those things are not needed and merely served as smoke screen to cover up the  fact that I am not truly fulfilled as an individual. There is always something missing and work managed to just do so much. I switched my focus then to Shanghai and China when it was the big thing - they were hiring like mad and it was one of the few options left of advertising people and to be honest, anyone in general. Though there is always this secret joke/myth that only the not so good people were hired. Half were true. Then again, the same can be said for anywhere in the world.

So nothing came out from it and then I moved on. I have to move on. People around me already did and to think that these are my usual drinking kakis and friends to do nonsense with:

Ms I - since I know her till now, she's married, now with a bun in the oven trying to build a family
Ms K - done her traveling and sabbatical and now back, getting married and looking to settle down
Mr W - left advertising to do his family business only to leave it again to come back. But back being in Singapore
Ms LP - left and married, now pregnant too
Ms S - left, come back and now leaving again to do her own thing. Given a chance to run her own company.
Ms S - promoted to head a sister company and now engaged.

At a certain age, people need to move on even if it looked impossible back then for me to imagine some of them with kids and all but thats life. Don't believe any of us can go back to those days. Those were really good days of getting drunk, smoking (more than just cigarette), hop around bars and places, being really spontaneous and carelessly traveling, having fun.

The party is over and I don't want to be the only one left not knowing it's already over long time ago. But doing this is not because I had to do something but I have finally realised that this is not what I want to do for the rest of my life. And knowing that while is a good thing - doing something about it is quite important as well. And at least I am doing something about it.

If you are free, have a read: The risk not taken is more dangerous than the risk taken.

2 comments:

Twilight Man said...

Only an idiot like me lasted over 10 years in a HKG agency here. You will be next. Move on man! Shoo!

chaiminhuei said...

All the best!