I am Thompson Boy

There was plenty occasions that I have attempted to write and somewhat clear some things about myself but I ended up deleting them, casting it aside and think, fuck that shit – why do I even have to bother? I mean if people think that I am this and that, so be it. You can’t please everyone and you shouldn’t. But then again, I have been unhappy lately thinking about certain things so just to clear the air: Arrogance Sorry people but I can’t help it. I was born that way. Even my mother tells me that I look damn arrogant, unfriendly and almost impossible. Everyone who knows me well will attest to that they think I was damn cocky until they gotten to know me. Maybe it’s the ice breaking part. I don’t do well with strangers or new people unless of course they are my client. Then I can be fake. Other than that, it’s me and my cocky face. I look cold and unfriendly and have accepted the fact that I will always be that way. Is it my education? Or perhaps I think I am better than other people? ...

I was feeling a little lost as I was driving home just now. This is the first time for awhile that I have found myself coming home before 12. Frantically, I was trying to make amend by calling ex-Upstairs’ Bitch to find out how is she coping without work and out of advertising and couldn’t reach her. Then there’s always Cookie. He was less than impressed with me. I was even contemplating to call Fei Mui since the phone bill is on the company. But anyway, I managed to got myself home. Coming home when everyone else is in the slumberland and greeted by silence and darkness made me felt abit lonely for the first time since a very long time. I am never those who have problems amusing myself with little things to do or think. I can spend the weekend at home, doing nothing but pot myself here and there. There’s TV usually for the nighttime and my date would be E! followed by other trashy show. Can’t help but wondered what others do. Do they come home at night, turn off the lights and then cr...