Changes they said is a task equivalent to leopard changing its spot but to me, this season in particular there is a lot of leopard prints going around in different patterns and colors and so how can it be hard? Ok, so maybe it's a little harder when it comes to certain things like smoking. But I am actually happy to say that I've managed to quit. Well, quit might be a big word as I still indulge in half stick or a puff or two on bad day (very far and few in between) but buying them or getting back to them? Never again.
To be honest, I haven't really cheated for more than 4 months and one for the reason for doing so is over a man. Yes, as superficial as it may sound but it's true and at least it worked. For years I have been trying quit well knowing full well the affects of long term smoking but back then when you are younger, cancer and illness are the last thing on your mind. I have been smoking since I was 21 years old and graduated to heavyweight in my mid 20s and that continued on for a good (or bad) 4-5 years (also fueled by alcohol intake which was very heavy for the past 4 years).
I only took it seriously during the last 1-2 years when I cut down my consumption and buying, I have to say gradual and small changes like that is a good step down but there is always an occasion or rather permission to smoke and I nearly gave up the notion of quitting because I damn like smoking so much - until he came along. It's just the push that I need - he doesn't like smoke/smoking (even though he will tolerate it) and me being nice and considerate, I naturally stopped for him. After all, ask me to choose between a cigarette or a nice guy - it wouldn't take a genius to figure out what is more worthwhile. However, a friend did pointed out that if he likes you, he should take you for who you are - well I agree but smoking isn't really who I am (it's just a habit I picked up along the way) and it's nasty anyway.
For me...changes are okay as long as it's for good, good for me and for everyone around me. Does that make me less me? Well...that's an argument which I want to continue in the next part....