Like everyone knows, first come the dark clouds then it's the thunderbolt and pouring rain. Eventually the rain will subside and perhaps a rainbow will appear?
But disregard, I was feeling all thunderstormy - asking whys and looking for answers. As anyone with experience would tell you, it's a bad idea but I guess it's an idea that I felt I needed to explore. Of course I am angry because I was lead on for as long as I did. I even felt abit cheated because I thought everything was dandy and funky dory. But anger was quickly replaced with sadness because nothing hurts more than when someone tells you that they were unhappy.
I remembered one fight that we had, I said that I was very concerned about making him happy. Him being happy is very important to me and if it meant not being with me, then so be it, as cliche as it may sound. Coupled that realization with the fact that he has moved on (thanks to FB, I can see some camwhoring pictures), so that is a good thing. Maybe one day we can still be friends.
I am so thankful for my friends and family. Again cliche but true. They are helping me with this...and I don't think I need much help other than getting free alcohol.
As for now, I told myself that I would work harder, be stronger, do better, get richer and most importantly...I will still have hair when I am in my 40s (and he's losing it now). LOL. Evil. Yeah but it feels soooo good.