I still can't sleep, trying to break the pattern of sleeping late and waking up early but everything just reminds me of you. I dreamt about you. It was about whys whys and more whys.
I need to find a new routine, I cannot just spend my days drinking and burning money and not doing anything.
Just remembered telling you back then that I am so scared of losing you. I didn't know how profound it was until now.
I am just so fucked.